selfish prince
The words come out
So awkward and stiff
My heart is like a whirlpool
I’m drowning this way
I keep looking backk
And seeing the black
I wish my light was near
Without it I am blind
There’s a burning and a cold
So numb and so frozen
When I walk, I’m afraid to stop
I might miss a step
If the speed is constant
If times never stops
I might walk long enough
To feel the furthest away from you
Its the poison strings that binded me
Whenever I look back I see a blank face
My heart has fallen apart
And you’re not picking up the pieces
Tell me, why should we fall in love with angels
If we can’t tell them apart from demons
The dark dark black that lures in your heart
I want to fight it and tear it apart
I loved you once, I loved you twice
I loved you so much, I loved you thrice
The purple velvet that wrapped my heart in sadness
I want to fight it and turn it to bliss
On a sad, sad November day
I kissed the grey sky, reading a story about love
Sitting by the gleaming moonlight
I whispered to the moon about my loneliness
Even the moon doesn’t reply
Add a comment November 12, 2009
dedication
one
Our meeting was odd and unexpected but at the time I was younger and much more foolish than now. I don’t know how or why I started liking you. You had or atleast seemed t have the perfect life. I’m embarassed to say that I envied you for that. For you, I changed. My perceptions of everything seemed to be different. I don’t understand how our lives slowly drifted apart. One day we were the best of friend, and the next we were total strangers. I really liked you, I hope you will never find out. Some nights I couldn’t sleep because I kept thinking of you. I was crazy for you, I’m such a foolish person. I hope that one day we can rekindle our friendship.
two
Forso lon your friendship didn’t mean much to me. But, as the days went on, I became somewhat partial to you. You are like the older brother that I never had. I feel so blessed to have gotten to know you. I know things have been hard for you, but I want to be there in times of trouble, in time of sadness and in times of happiness. Sometimes I wonder why we are not closer to eachother. I think we would surely enjoy eachother’s presence. I hope that things will look up for in the future. I hope you will meet someone nice and that you will love very much. It’s okay if it’s not me. We ar just not the right person for eachother.
three
At first, I ddin’t really care much for who you were. You are just one of those stereotypical guys looking for a pretty girl. i know that I am not your ideal type, but I had hoped that you could have accepted me as I was. I have to admit, you did make me feel good. WIth you, all was calm and I could be myself. But I also asmit that I have lied to you many times to make me seem better, a guy’s best ideal. You’re someone that I really wanted to myself. It hurt when you would mention others. But, even if we were to meet, I’d be too shy around you, and I don’t think I am the kind of person that you would like at all. Sometimes I wonder what you really think of me. I don’t know if I want to find out.
four
You are really special. You’re the only person that has told that they liked me. But, you wouldn’t use the word “like”, you much prefered “love”. I don’t know what I could have done to make you love me so much. I admit that at first, I ddin’t have much interest in you, but as things went on my feelings for you changed and before long, I think I liked you as well. I’m sorry for denying these feelings for you. It must have hurt to be hit by my hurtful words. I am so sorry. All those plans that you had in mind, I hope that they will work out. I am sorry I hurt. I am sorry that I hurt myself, hurting you.
Add a comment May 18, 2009
the electric eel
I plugged myself in without any charge
Even if it can’t be, can you be the one to recharge my battery?
Help me out
I’m a surge of energy
waiting for your lightning bolt
I’m helpless within your grasp
It’s loneliness within your arms
The distance is so comforting
The simple words made it easier
The time zone made it unbearable
I need to get out of this galaxy
Cause I know youre not the one for me
Gaze at me silenly
Think of me repeately
In this made up love story, there’s a prince and I
When I turned the page upside down
I saw the saddened expressions on our faces
And decided that maybe it was time to let go
Add a comment May 18, 2009
to say sorry
I didn’t have to say that I’m sorry
You said I didn’t have to worry about that
You left and said you were fine
Then you made me cross the line for you
You left me hurt and broken hearted
That’s just the way it started between us
Never thought to say I’m taken
Going to take it all and fake it, nothing to lose
Sorry isn’t in m vocabulary
Although my vocabulary is sorry
I’m not a person of perfect illusion
I don’t have magic cards, and hats, and tricks
I’m just a fool that fell for another fool
A fool that was not the right one please you
Someone that gave too much for love
And never got anything in return
Add a comment May 18, 2009
so death decided to stop for me
Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don’t judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren’t necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people’s eyes.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.
The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that’s why you’ll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?
Your views on education
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.
The right job for you:
You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.
How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don’t succeed. Don’t give up when you haven’t yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don’t ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.
Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
Add a comment March 14, 2009
heartbreak, paper plates
This is not the first time
Just the same endless loop of unfornate happenings
This is not a realization
Just the same reaction to constant feelings
I won’t take it
But it doesn’t look like I have a choice
Tell me this is another misunderstanding
Tell me I’m not wrong again
Add a comment February 24, 2009
My Uncertain Future
I advance forward because its the only direction infront of me
The smile on my face is bright
Live strongly for me
I am going along forward
Because even though I canno see the future
I know it exist
Add a comment February 3, 2009
the invisible
It’s okay if you don’t want me
I can learn to be the shadow
In time, i’m sure that I can find my own happiness
That way, you don’t have to be considerate
Even if I can’t be
I can always pretend
That you’re the one that’s beside me
It doesn’t matter
I can learn to be the one that left behind
You can waste all of my energy
You can turn around if you want
Because I can learn to be the one that’s left unsatisfied
It doesn’t matter
Even if it’s a one-way affair
I can pretend that it never happened
When I told you that you couldn’t fall in love with me
I didn’t tell myself that I couldn’t fall in love with you.
Add a comment January 22, 2009
goodbye hello
I’ll keep waiting for the next hello
It’s your eyes in my mind
Even if it can’t be
I’ll pretend that you’re the one beside me
Everything’s broken
But I’ll way a way to piece it all back together
I never thought of the distance between us
And I never doubted your words
Even though I couldn’t understand them
Maybe there will be a better time then this one
I want to feel your hand in mine
I think I really
Kinda
Perhaps
Like You
I think this heart beats only for you
Don’t guess my age
Baby I know you love me
Let’s make love tonight
Cover my eyes tonight
Don’t say this is the end
Don’t let me go
Exploded neon signs
Broken mirror ball
In this place, you and me, just the two of us
Who are you still waiting for
Get closer to me.
Don’t stop
This is just the beginning
It’s time to become one
Your foot on mine, and your arms around my body
We dance together and start to fire together
Noticeable lies, don’t say I hate you
A clear kiss mark on your cheek
Unforgettable last night
Don’t be afraid
Relax your mind
And join me in this broken love song.
Add a comment January 8, 2009
empty wrappers and candy canes
Another year. Just another year.
It’s the same thing every time, nothing changes. It’s that familiar taste of chocolate and the peppermint of the candy.
I’m caught up in innocent drawings and bubble baths, and drowning myself in hairspray.
The street of Harajuku have a different scent, and this chair can’t stand straight.
I never liked Christmas, and I might never like it at all.
I can’t eat, it makes me sick.
I can’t sleep, I have nightmares.
I can’t smile, it hurts.
Somehow I’m always incomplete.
There’s sidestories behind everything.
Why?
It happens all the time.
Just one look away, and you leave.
Things change so quickly, I hate it.
I guess they all have lives of their own.
And I guess mine is never considered anyways.
“I tried to go on like I never knew you, I’m awake, but my world is half-asleep”
So when the scent of peaches and melon die down, the time is up, and the fragrance stands still.
There’s so much mystery in this world, and it surrounds me endlessly.
Maybe that poisonous apple will take Snow White elsewhere for once.
I’ll travel on tightropes , and dream in my mind.
For things are never perfect, until imperfections cease to exist.
Add a comment December 25, 2008
