dedication

May 18, 2009 jaeli

one

Our meeting was odd and unexpected but at the time I was younger and much more foolish than now. I don’t know how or why I started liking you. You had or atleast seemed t have the perfect life. I’m embarassed to say that I envied you for that. For you, I changed. My perceptions of everything seemed to be different. I don’t understand how our lives slowly drifted apart. One day we were the best of friend, and the next we were total strangers. I really liked you, I hope you will never find out. Some nights I couldn’t sleep because I kept thinking of you. I was crazy for you, I’m such a foolish person. I hope that one day we can rekindle our friendship.

two

Forso lon your friendship didn’t mean much to me. But, as the days went on, I became somewhat partial to you. You are like the older brother that I never had. I feel so blessed to have gotten to know you. I know things have been hard for you, but I want to be there in times of trouble, in time of sadness and in times of happiness. Sometimes I wonder why we are not closer to eachother. I think we would surely enjoy eachother’s presence. I hope that things will look up for in the future. I hope you will meet someone nice and that you will love very much. It’s okay if it’s not me. We ar just not the right person for eachother.

three

At first, I ddin’t really care much for who you were. You are just one of those stereotypical guys looking for a pretty girl. i know that I am not your ideal type, but I had hoped that you could have accepted me as I was. I have to admit, you did make me feel good. WIth you, all was calm and I could be myself. But I also asmit that I have lied to you many times to make me seem better, a guy’s best ideal. You’re someone that I really wanted to myself. It hurt when you would mention others. But, even if we were to meet, I’d be too shy around you, and I don’t think I am the kind of person that you would like at all. Sometimes I wonder what you really think of me. I don’t know if I want to find out.

four

You are really special. You’re the only person that has told that they liked me. But, you wouldn’t use the word “like”, you much prefered “love”. I don’t know what I could have done to make you love me so much. I admit that at first, I ddin’t have much interest in you, but as things went on my feelings for you changed and before long, I think I liked you as well. I’m sorry for denying these feelings for you. It must have hurt to be hit by my hurtful words. I am so sorry. All those plans that you had in mind, I hope that they will work out. I am sorry I hurt. I am sorry that I hurt myself, hurting you.

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