I keep looking backk
And seeing the black
I wish my light was near
Without it I am blind

There’s a burning and a cold
So numb and so frozen
When I walk, I’m afraid to stop
I might miss a step

If the speed is constant
If times never stops
I might walk long enough
To feel the furthest away from you

Its the poison strings that binded me
Whenever I look back I see a blank face
My heart has fallen apart
And you’re not picking up the pieces

Tell me, why should we fall in love with angels
If we can’t tell them apart from demons
The dark dark black that lures in your heart
I want to fight it and tear it apart

I loved you once, I loved you twice
I loved you so much, I loved you thrice
The purple velvet that wrapped my heart in sadness
I want to fight it and turn it to bliss

On a sad, sad November day
I kissed the grey sky, reading a story about love
Sitting by the gleaming moonlight
I whispered to the moon about my loneliness
Even the moon doesn’t reply

Our meeting was odd and unexpected but at the time I was younger and much more foolish than now. I don’t know how or why I started liking you. You had or atleast seemed t have the perfect life. I’m embarassed to say that I envied you for that. For you, I changed. My perceptions of everything seemed to be different. I don’t understand how our lives slowly drifted apart. One day we were the best of friend, and the next we were total strangers. I really liked you, I hope you will never find out. Some nights I couldn’t sleep because I kept thinking of you. I was crazy for you, I’m such a foolish person. I hope that one day we can rekindle our friendship.

two

Forso lon your friendship didn’t mean much to me. But, as the days went on, I became somewhat partial to you. You are like the older brother that I never had. I feel so blessed to have gotten to know you. I know things have been hard for you, but I want to be there in times of trouble, in time of sadness and in times of happiness. Sometimes I wonder why we are not closer to eachother. I think we would surely enjoy eachother’s presence. I hope that things will look up for in the future. I hope you will meet someone nice and that you will love very much. It’s okay if it’s not me. We ar just not the right person for eachother.

three

At first, I ddin’t really care much for who you were. You are just one of those stereotypical guys looking for a pretty girl. i know that I am not your ideal type, but I had hoped that you could have accepted me as I was. I have to admit, you did make me feel good. WIth you, all was calm and I could be myself. But I also asmit that I have lied to you many times to make me seem better, a guy’s best ideal. You’re someone that I really wanted to myself. It hurt when you would mention others. But, even if we were to meet, I’d be too shy around you, and I don’t think I am the kind of person that you would like at all. Sometimes I wonder what you really think of me. I don’t know if I want to find out.

four

You are really special. You’re the only person that has told that they liked me. But, you wouldn’t use the word “like”, you much prefered “love”. I don’t know what I could have done to make you love me so much. I admit that at first, I ddin’t have much interest in you, but as things went on my feelings for you changed and before long, I think I liked you as well. I’m sorry for denying these feelings for you. It must have hurt to be hit by my hurtful words. I am so sorry. All those plans that you had in mind, I hope that they will work out. I am sorry I hurt. I am sorry that I hurt myself, hurting you.

Even if it can’t be, can you be the one to recharge my battery?

Help me out

I’m a surge of energy

waiting for your lightning bolt

I’m helpless within your grasp

It’s loneliness within your arms

The distance is so comforting

The simple words made it easier

The time zone made it unbearable

I need to get out of this galaxy

Cause I know youre not the one for me

Gaze at me silenly

Think of me repeately

In this made up love story, there’s a prince and I

When I turned the page upside down

I saw the saddened expressions on our faces

And decided that maybe it was time to let go

You said I didn’t have to worry about that

You left and said you were fine

Then you made me cross the line for you

You left me hurt and broken hearted

That’s just the way it started between us

Never thought to say I’m taken

Going to take it all and fake it, nothing to lose

Sorry isn’t in m vocabulary

Although my vocabulary is sorry

I’m not a person of perfect illusion

I don’t have magic cards, and hats, and tricks

I’m just a fool that fell for another fool

A fool that was not the right one please you

Someone that gave too much for love

And never got anything in return

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don’t judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren’t necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people’s eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that’s why you’ll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:

You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don’t succeed. Don’t give up when you haven’t yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don’t ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Just the same endless loop of unfornate happenings

This is not a realization

Just the same reaction to constant feelings

I won’t take it

But it doesn’t look like I have a choice

Tell me this is another misunderstanding

Tell me I’m not wrong again

The smile on my face is bright

Live strongly for me

I am going along forward

Because even though I canno see the future

I know it exist

I can learn to be the shadow

In time, i’m sure that I can find my own happiness

That way, you don’t have to be considerate

Even if I can’t be

I can always pretend

That you’re the one that’s beside me

It doesn’t matter

I can learn to be the one that left behind

You can waste all of my energy

You can turn around if you want

Because I can learn to be the one that’s left unsatisfied

It doesn’t matter

Even if it’s a one-way affair

I can pretend that it never happened

When I told you that you couldn’t fall in love with me

I didn’t tell myself that I couldn’t fall in love with you.

It’s your eyes in my mind

Even if it can’t be

I’ll pretend that you’re the one beside me

Everything’s broken

But I’ll way a way to piece it all back together

I never thought of the distance between us

And I never doubted your words

Even though I couldn’t understand them

Maybe there will be a better time then this one

I want to feel your hand in mine

I think I really

Kinda

Perhaps

Like You

I think this heart beats only for you

Don’t guess my age

Baby I know you love me

Let’s make love tonight

Cover my eyes tonight

Don’t say this is the end

Don’t let me go

Exploded neon signs

Broken mirror ball

In this place, you and me, just the two of us

Who are you still waiting for

Get closer to me.

Don’t stop

This is just the beginning

It’s time to become one

Your foot on mine, and your arms around my body

We dance together and start to fire together

Noticeable lies, don’t say I hate you

A clear kiss mark on your cheek

Unforgettable last night

Don’t be afraid

Relax your mind

And join me in this broken love song.

It’s the same thing every time, nothing changes. It’s that familiar taste of chocolate and the peppermint of the candy.

I’m caught up in innocent drawings and bubble baths, and drowning myself in hairspray.

The street of Harajuku have a different scent, and this chair can’t stand straight.

I never liked Christmas, and I might never like it at all.

I can’t eat, it makes me sick.

I can’t sleep, I have nightmares.

I can’t smile, it hurts.

Somehow I’m always incomplete.

There’s sidestories behind everything.

Why?

It happens all the time.

Just one look away, and you leave.

Things change so quickly, I hate it.

I guess they all have lives of their own.

And I guess mine is never considered anyways.

“I tried to go on like I never knew you, I’m awake, but my world is half-asleep”

So when the scent of peaches and melon die down, the time is up, and the fragrance stands still.

There’s so much mystery in this world, and it surrounds me endlessly.

Maybe that poisonous apple will take Snow White elsewhere for once.

I’ll travel on tightropes , and dream in my mind.

For things are never perfect, until imperfections cease to exist.